Two super duper huge events in my life..anky's marriage and my marriage. One of them is happening. :):):)
He must be blissful and i get to shop(yay). Perfect. :)
And D will be there too..what if he just falls for me at Anky's wedding..now how much fun would that be. Sigh. Stupid 'i-don-wana-marry-for the next 3-4 years plans' he has.  Anyhoo, he's a guy and him gettng married makes me senti..i dont even wana go into how i would feel when i have to to leave them(in theory) at my wedding.
For all the trillion*trillion and more times anky has cracked me up and made me laugh unintentionally..by just being him..alllllllllll the good wishes. May you also have adorable lovely kids that i can eat.;)

Merry Christmas. Joy and happiness to alllllllllllll:):):)
Kissy!

Ik jahan chota sa apna
Ik jahan tumhara
Muskaan chahe meethi ho
Ya aansoon ek khara

Chalo baant lein ghum aur khushi
Thodi guftagoo kar lein
Kaho kya khayaal hai.


:)
New amazing songs and the ingredients for my walk are complete.

And its just perpetual endless oodles of laughter with him.
A:)

i believe..

I believe in the sun, even though it slowly rises
I believe in you, even without realizing
I believe in the rain, though i see no cloud in the sky
I believe in truth, even though everybody lie
I believe in Love (I believe in love)
Even though people live hatred
I believe in the power to forgive
I believe in Love (I believe in love)






A few lines from I believe( Dewarist.)Agnee, Parikrama and Shilpa Rao. Wonderful creation..

Only if I were a wizard(witch..but wizard sounds better) and a vampire loved me and a werewolf(who loved me too) was my best friend. What an amazing life that would be no?

Twilight..aww..such an amazing movie. Like super duper cute. Sigh. Edward’s line during their wedding..that  ‘no measure of time will be long enough with you so I’ll go with forever.’  Now..isnt that like the most adorable thing ever. And their honeymoon..it was palpably awkward watching it anky (do not go for this one with your bro..mom..okay..but brother..not a good idea) but the way he treats her(the way they treat each other)..perfect.  and some island beyond rio de janeiro..only them..hah..yay.. for them..:)

And Jacob..ooooh..hottie. 

I thought I ll grow up..when I grow up..but I still find all this it mesmerizing.  Too many expectations from the guy I get married to..but he has to believe in twilight and spidey as much as I do. He needs to.

Porche cayenne is naice..its strange that I just started noticing them.

Loveyyyy.

Love.

The number of times i say 'awe' during a day..is countless and somehow, oddly, it seems to be increasing. I mean anything i watch..from a lame advertisement (like the cadbury one or platinum band..day of love)..or serials like 'Mike and Molly' where the guy asks Molly to marry him or 'Better With You' or 'Friends'..even 'simpsons' or movies like spidey, twilight, two week notice, break ke baad(saw it this morning..imran khan's character was kinda silly but sooo sweet) and like the most recent entry into this burst of lovey dovey movies..Rockstar. Love being the one which makes people want to live, makes them happy, makes them better..you know..any slight indication of love even if it is far away and i am all blown away by it ignoring all the surrounding problems cuz..its love.

My friend said that i am a  romantic and despite not wanting to concede..i do think that love makes everything seem nicer than it is.
AA..childhood sweethearts getting married. Awe. Right?:)

Oh oh..twilight..coming..this friday...watching it with anky..yay!:):)

Another me lives another life..a much cooler carefree one and IF those two meeees merge into one, it would be so much fun.

Ohh..my feesheeeee! My cute babies. Look down-->

I miss rishikesh..apparently not having control in the ganges when the river rafting guy pushed us into water and that tall cute silent merchant navy guy's appearance and him holding my hand and helping me to the boat..haaaa..fun!! S..lets have another trip..we owe it to our friendship and the fact that we havent been to any of the fancy restaurants in Delhi:)

Chowki Dhani, Jaipur..cutest place ever.

Love..oh, so weird!!!!

Rewards matter, efforts don't.
But i hope that sometime in future..efforts do too.

Happy navratras..happy festive season. You, out there, have a gala time. :)

Okay. I ve realized that whenever I cross Adhchini (HSA's location) which is almost everyday while going anywhere with my parents..I look at the turn where the office is situated and I gleefully shout “my office” and my mum also responds in the same way. Not a good thing. I am just an intern but I do feel a connection with the place..and its people.
I might have written this before but saw the spidey-1 AGAIN yesterday..and its first line when he described his love for MJ saying that she was ‘the woman I loved even before I knew I liked girls.’. totally sweeps me off my feet everytime. Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Fate/destiny/luck/hardwork..recurring confusion. But life definitely follows the first three.

You learn so much in offices. People’s habits(primarily, well only smoking), their awesome salaries and how some of them still crib about it, their diplomatic behavior, their hard work, and how I need to get placed in a super cool firm like this. I want..
Mum said that a lot of men will give you attention when ure working or otherwise but you will rationally have to decide as to whom to get friendly with. I wish ankur was there to judge every guy I met (guy to guy thing..as in a guy can see what a co-guy wants)..life would be so much easier then. You know, his responsibility kinds..

Teri tirchi nazar ne dil ko kar diya pencher(puncture)..is such a funny song. Imran Khan is looking super cute with the whole feeling of “dude..i am singing this song..actually”..and anky and I kept laughing throughout the movie which says that I loved the it..such a happppy movie.
socha tumne bhi hint diya
lekin sandal ka print diya…:)
Work’s awesome. Tooooooo much pressure though. But so much knowledge.

Something had to happen. Intricacies of life. You want to be passive but you’re exactly the opposite.
Works’s fun. Not too much of it but I love the office feel. Thankfully. I had always thought that I would miss sleeping (the most important part of the afternoon thingy) but I don..that much.
We are probably planning a trip to ranikhet sometime next week. Now, I know that there are almost 80% chances of it not happening but yay for the excitement.
A lot of lawyers in the family. My brother’s to-be-wifeyy and her brother are also lawyers. We could all get together and open a Seth’s law firm, surpassing the already existing Seth law firm. :)

a pat on the back!

YAY!:):):)they're overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...

Rihanna..Happpppppy song no?:)

Phew!

The most dreaded month of the last half an year (say one year) about to come to an end. Scary and freaky and nerve wracking and something I ve worked the hardest for. I think. Only 22% left..then fun.
Fun as in internships..back to back..without a single holiday. I wish it had started a lil later but thankfully I got the companies I got. Meeting new people and learning from their HR skills..required!

Hope you're doing fineeeeee! :)

"tumhe yeh zid thi ki hum bulate..
humhe yeh ummid woh pukaarein
hai naam hoton pe ab bhi lekin
Aawaz mein pad gayi dararein"...hazaar rahein mud ke dekhi by Kishor Kumar. Wonderfulllll song.
I am into the old hindi songs music feel..and they are acutally wow.

Exam stress makes you do/say such weird things. Odddddddddddddity odd.:)
(this is what A would say)

I miss college..random fun will always be cherished.

Like a blizzard..

The same, very same things keeps brushing off me time and again and I am amazed everytime. Look for reasons..look for reasons!!
The title is a song btw..

Optimismmmmmmm.

Things that we don’t have in our hands..and hence cant be controlled, we havta leave it to be taken care of by God. Hoping that he'll bless us all. :)

And this is for people excited about their birthday..i am not. But yay for you.:) ;)

:):)

India won the ICC World Cup, 2011. As much as I don’t want to be super excited about it..i am. The team worked earnestly and it paid off. It was truly well deserved. And I don believe in all the match fixing rumours. Sangkarra’s speech in the end was amazing. It is a victory for the nation and all of need to be as passionate about it as we are. :)

Yesterday a person said "you haven’t changed either"..and it got me thinking that maybe it’s a pretense of acting like the person I was 3 years ago or maybe 5 cuz that is how the person knows me. I have changed and things have changed too, I lead a different life now, and so does that person. How can it be possibly the same then?

Not accepting it is a separate thing altogether but believing your behavior to be reality that you actually get confused as to what the truth is..is weird. Its like that novel in English 3rd year in ‘The Balcony’ where mirror portray your wana-be-reality to such a great extent That role-playing becomes more real than reality itself.

I think the basic thing is that you remain a good person and that remains constant.

You know how everything else seems to be almost irrelevant when put in comparison with something vital. Exactly what is happening..that something is getting closer.

Saw Marley and Me. It’s an amazingly realistic and simplistic movie that depicts most of the things that happen when you get married, have kids and decide to not continue with your job (oh its also about Marley..the 100 pound doggy who continues to test everyone's patience by acting like the world's most impulsive dog). It chronicles the growth of a couple and the impact their pet has on their family throughout their life. So, coming to the point, seeing Jenny and John..i envisioned what they would have and its really sweet. But it would be sweeter if I had something like that too. Then I would be truly able to understand why this is okay. Maybe not even then but still. :)

Things match in life. You in your head differentiate your thoughts from their ideas and then you find out out they are exactly like yours, basic issues and happy things remain analogous. It shows that cultures don’t matter but the person does. Always pleasant to find someone like minded.
:)

The gurgling feelings inside me are compelling me to think about stuff I don’t wana think about. And then I dream about the same thing. Not done. But atleast I dream. Now. :)
Got my first salary..and it feels great. It’s a small amount but its mine..Mineeeeeeee:)..(and mom & dads).

Muuaah.

Eluding reality

Nothing is permanent. I know that. We know that. So, its almost like I don’t want to feel too much happiness or sorrow by the changing circumstances except that put the latter a few (say, a 1565x10000) notches higher. Now, I would truly like to believe that we should accept what is given to us but a small part of me says that I shouldn’t. I should always try to aim at better..much better. And that is what is written. Calvin’s destiny can’t be all that true. Its definitely puzzling though. Lets seeeeeee.

Internship over..college begun. It’s a cycle that will go on for another year and a half. It’s a pretty long course especially since all my friends are clearing out this year (except the ones doing LL.B..oh you must have got that..:)). And that too, a person told me, second graduation. I was almost on the verge of arguing but then i realised its true. Fine. I better be reciprocated. Like really.:)
E and I went and sat in Stephen’s cafeteria and it’s actually nice. We were there for 2 hours (yeah, my timetable is pretty lenient) and were discussing/bitching about law(yers)..interesting conversation that made and a cup (okay, two) of coffee..neattt!!:). Whinyyy mood.

On a totally different tangent, my hair is long again. :):)

And she tells me to give them all..it won’t be as hard as you make it to be. She gave Economics honors and BA honors exams together (and got a distinction in both which at that time was a massive deal). But someone has got to convince her that she was a genius and her daughter’s (wow, felt real good saying it) not. Like she thinks both of us are equally fair but anyone else who sees us would say, without even thinking twice, that my mom is at least two shades fairer. Her response to everyone being ‘bacchi hai. She goes to college. She’s tanned’. Really? I wish I was like her though..

Finally, the fun weekends have started. Work the whole week and shopping on the weekend. Not shopping shopping but going out and eating AND shopping..okay, I know I ve used this word 4 times already but I don’t shop as much as you think I do. It’s just the very idea that’s exciting. Then watching movies (saw ‘break ke baad’ and ‘band baaja baraat’ both of which were good except the ridiculous ending and case39 which was okishh :)). And sleeeeeeeping. You SEEEEEEEE what I am talking about. Happpppy weekends for a month of which only 10 days are left.

Ankur may get married in 2 to 2.5 years. It’s not tomorrow and we knew it already but the very idea becoming a reality is a little disturbing yet exceedingly pleasant. Woohoo!

Okay, I should get back to researching on the boring Gujarat solar power plant.

Muah.

Ps-I can’t decide who is cuter..Yashvi or Sana..they are at par right now. :)

In reference to pugsie's http://pugslie.blogspot.com/2011/01/universal-problem-me-thinks.html... because we cannot not expect. We are all selfish. We cannot be happy unless we have our demands met. If, for instance, there was a person that we gave everything to..out of our own happiness and that person happily kept taking it..u know somewhere inside..probably a tiny tiny tiny fraction of our mind/heart will Want that person to do something in reciprocation appreciating what we have done. I mean, however callous it may sound, we even expect God to listen to our prayers so how can we not have those expectations from men/women. Now, you’ve either got to be a super human or have a person in your life who fulfills your expectations(out of his own will but Also because you are doing the exact same thing) whatever name you give it..and say that we don’t expect anything from each other when you do and you have those met. There are no selfless good deeds as Joey states. A feeling of gratitude or a big gift(preferably:D)..anything..but we need something. :)

Hum neki kar dariya main daal hi nahi sakte..its humanly impossible. We can do good, show it to people and remember it for future references. But here's hoping that we'll improve:)